This is what I feel like these days - Rosei the Riveter - trying to balance my life as a wife, mother but work a full-time job as well.
After Emmalee was born and I went back to work, I, like I know so many other moms, felt guilty about leaving her. It was an extremely emotional time for me - this was my sweet baby girl and I was leaving her. But I had full confidence in the private sitter Brant and I chose, and day-by-day the guilt faded away.
However, I hated the fact that I worked almost an hour away from home. My days started at 6 when I got out of bed, made my cup of joe, then got myself ready. At 7, I work Emmalee up, dressed her, fed her, spent a little one-on-one time with her, then we left the house by 8. Dropped her off with Ms. Regina at 8:20, then headed to the office. Worked from 9-6, then get home to my husband and baby around 7. Walk in the door, feed a starving Emmalee, fix dinner, eat around 8, clean the kitchen, put Em to bed, go to bed and get ready to do it all over again. After a few weeks, I was okay to be working, but I hated that I lost so much time during the day with Emmalee.
So I started looking at what else was out there, and was incredibly fortunate to receive a job offer just a few short weeks into my search. I got the privilege of going to work for a large, reputable company who values family. I am only about 20 minutes from home now, but I get to set my own hours. Brant and I both leave the house around 7:30 and both get home around 5:30. I finally get to relax in the evenings and play with Emmalee - I usually get a good 3 hours with her before she goes to bed.
I won't lie, I still have some guilt about working, but its what my family needs. At this moment, I can just be thankful that the Lord answered our prayers and provided something 1) with a pay raise, 2) a family-friendly job (which my law firm was NOT), 3) much closer to home, and 4) with better hours. Brant and I feel blessed that I was given this opportunity.
So, if you want to know why I have been on blog hiatus, its because I have been busy with a new job, enjoying fixed dinner for my family (that now eats around 6), and playing with the sweetest baby girl I know! Life, for the Williams, is good!